I'm not belong here, i'm such a burden

 Actually I wrote this on twitter. But I thought it would be better if I insert also the self-blame on this blog.

Tuhan, rasanya ingin ikut rekoleksi yg benar-benar bikin diri ini sadar akan perasaan sendiri. Aku masih autopilot

— lutgardis (@lutgardiscae) April 5, 2024

i would be an apathetic and unempathetic person if there's no the existence of these people in my life who's influenced me to give compassion to others. I'm really grateful to be born in this big family. I learnt kindness from them, not from my parents

— lutgardis (@lutgardiscae) April 7, 2024