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03. januari 2025

di kantor rasanya butek banget. mungkin karena lantai ruanganku lagi direnovasi dan harus mengungsi ke temoat lain, dapatnya ruangan yang ga nyaman. lalu saat hendak mencari makan ke luar, tetiba dibenak hati aku, aku bilang kalau 'aku mau hidup'.
sudah berubahkah aku? sejak kapan aku mulai merasakan perasaan ini, 'ingin hidup'?

sungguh, 2024 itu menjadi tahun permulaanku. dari bertemu orang yang selama 2023 berkomunikasi di instagram menjadi bertemu di maret 2024. lalu diriku yang sepenuhnya takut untuk berbicara langsung dengan bule, sekarang tiap minggu jadi hangout terus sama kevin ini yang bikin hidup aku punya prinsip baru! 

anyway, 2024 telah menjadi langkah awal bangkit setelah sekian lama aku merasa insecure. please 2025 lebih baik lagi 🙏✨️

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