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I realized that I spent most of my time on day dreaming.
I was dreaming about achieving something that I haven't had.
Sometimes I blamed myself or some people and the situations, and sometimes I'm looking for some strategies to manage it. 

What does "living just by the flow" means?
after all these time what we needed is plans and strategies to live by designed!

I acknowledge that I can't control everything but myself.
I create, therefore I lived.

I ain't Laetitia Caeli if I didn't learn from experiences.


2024 - Bogor, Indonesia

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