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2017 adalah tahun di mana puncak saya merasa berhasil, dengan pencapaian dan pengalaman yang saya dapatkan.  2018 saya terjatuh hingga saat ini.  Saat ini saya sedang mencoba bangkit lagi dengan belajar dari kesalahan dan kebodohan yang sedang dijalani.  

Jadi, bisakah aku ke Jerman?

 - I'm weird. In fact, many people doesn't catch my message from what I said. I can't express my idea in a structural way. Thus, I thought the way I communicate is different from others. - How could I lived in this kind of world? Me defines as a human. Human is a dignity creature. And that's how I taught by the world.

If I can't study abroad, I study at Universitas Indonesia at least. hahaha   Yuk, tetap menumbuhkan benih rasa penasaran di dalam diri meski rencana yang sudah dibuat semakin kabur. 

I don't believe in marriage, even in love. I won't my life depends on someone’s. I truly hate that. I learnt from my parents' mistakes. I saw that devastating situation which blowed up my mind right now.  While I am in working, some guys came into my house. They looked like goons or messengers from my father's colleague. They demand my father from what he did in the way building his own company. I was eavesdropping their conversation. The point is my father have to pay notary's fee for canceling the create of company. I would explain that my father wasn't in the job. He is unemployment. He insists to create a company with aiming a notary would help him by promising after he managed his business deal. But my father's business hasn't been yet make a deal then the notary was impatient. She ordered those guys to demand my father would pay her fee. My father's debt was not only that. He has credit that must be paid off.  I would explain about my mom's...

I've been having an headache since like 3 hours ago, when it supposed to be the best time for sharing my problem-solving experiences to my future employer. I'm still mad at myself. Why did this happen to me?  It was totally a mess. My video interview wasn't uploaded yet.  I was waiting for like 2 hours to be patience by refreshed the browser; off/on the connection in assuming it will solve my problem. The video alywas re-uploading after run into freeze a while. I was frustrated. In the beginning I wasn't take seriously this interview. I just want to have a job interview experience from multinational company. Despite I already had official job, I take it for granted. In fact, I wanted to advance my english skill, especially in public speaking.  Oh well. To be honest, I take it for seriously! I meant it! I really want to work in FMCG industry! (Please forgive me my current company :") I would still do my best, kok. Be a professional employee :)) Until it came to the ...

Complete the work tasks before 15:00 (Western Indonesia Time) Learn Deutsche, an hour every after work! Sleep before 22:00  (Western Indonesia Time) Wake-up before 5:00, even when you no need to go to office! Learn English every Saturday. OK, Saturday is my sabbatical day.