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What the blisters

I am writing this post right on the train from Yogyakarta to Jakarta. I feel overwhelmed to leave Yogyakarta after some accidents happened to me. When I arrived there, I already got flu and a bit of fever. Therefor the night before I went cycling to Borobudur Temple, I was sweaty a lot (I believed this was fever). The burden from exhaustion made my body collapsed. But at least my cousin and I reached Borobudur Temple by cycling and as we expected, we couldn't continue for the way back home. We called our other cousin (who is I didn't know earlier that he is our long distance cousin, he lived near my grandpa (from my dad's side)'s house). That was on Saturday and there was Easter mass with my other cousin and her family to attend until Sat midnight. Actually, I already felt my body was crushed but I still managed it. I managed it even until 2AM the next morning, because I was having a call with long distance friend (I met him through bumble. I wish it grows in the fut...

a compilation: my love life (part 1)

I'm daring myself to write this as a self-awareness of my attachment issues. It might contains embarrassing stories, but I feel like I have to reconnect my relationship with myself and others and to discover what kind of problems i have been through since i was born. For this past years, I acknowledge that I met several guys in person or through online. What I need to highlight is I attached with them so quickly . Fortunately, I have a friend who I can talk with about this. She is my coworker and 3 years older than me. We are actually in searching someone to love with, thus made us a bit in common. Let begin with in December 2022, I DM-ed this person, my childhood crush who already studied and work in Germany. I told him that I enrolled a german class in Goethe-Institut. He cheered me up back then, and our convo went to a meet up on December 17, 2022. He said on Whatsapp that at that day, all day was for me. Omg, I still remember how my inner childhood hyped up all night long after...

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