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2023

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Applying Indonesian Passport

- my obsession over going abroad and making a plan to go to singapore, visit my sister and her children - felt anxious and applied passport immigration impulsively despite my shabby financial management - my experience about going to immigration office in east jakarta. ---- Nowadays, I realized that I am always looking for people who is working or studying abroad or specifically living in Germany. Like two weeks ago I sent a direct message to a guy who is half Indonesian-German and living in Germany as a journalist. I also sent a message to an Indonesian guy in Quora who is studying and working in Berlin. He is studying media communication, as the subject that I'm interested in studying. And the latest, I asked a phone number of my best friend's friend who had a master degree in Germany. LOL But then the bad part of mine, after I sent them a message and then they replied, I hesitate to reply. It because of my anxiousness of not being capable to give them good questions or going

sedang merasa gagal

2017 adalah tahun di mana puncak saya merasa berhasil, dengan pencapaian dan pengalaman yang saya dapatkan.  2018 saya terjatuh hingga saat ini.  Saat ini saya sedang mencoba bangkit lagi dengan belajar dari kesalahan dan kebodohan yang sedang dijalani.  

I've been thinking about this for a long time

 - I'm weird. In fact, many people doesn't catch my message from what I said. I can't express my idea in a structural way. Thus, I thought the way I communicate is different from others. - How could I lived in this kind of world? Me defines as a human. Human is a dignity creature. And that's how I taught by the world.
If I can't study abroad, I study at Universitas Indonesia at least. hahaha   Yuk, tetap menumbuhkan benih rasa penasaran di dalam diri meski rencana yang sudah dibuat semakin kabur. 

Just blowed up in my mind

I don't believe in marriage, even in love. I won't my life depends on someone’s. I truly hate that. I learnt from my parents' mistakes. I saw that devastating situation which blowed up my mind right now.  While I am in working, some guys came into my house. They looked like goons or messengers from my father's colleague. They demand my father from what he did in the way building his own company. I was eavesdropping their conversation. The point is my father have to pay notary's fee for canceling the create of company. I would explain that my father wasn't in the job. He is unemployment. He insists to create a company with aiming a notary would help him by promising after he managed his business deal. But my father's business hasn't been yet make a deal then the notary was impatient. She ordered those guys to demand my father would pay her fee. My father's debt was not only that. He has credit that must be paid off.  I would explain about my mom's